the boy

i know you. i see the way you look at other girls and i hear the way you talk to them. You use to look at me like that, you use to talk to me like that. You use to want to hold me, not fuck. not even have sex. i see you, loving me less and less everyday. i can see you giving up and moving on. Your slipping away, and its leaving me without meaning. i use to be all you needed, i use to be the girl you told all your friends about. its hard now. we have broken up so many times before but now its just nothing, we both know you want someone different. i finally understand what true love is, putting someone else’s happiness before your own. i did it to you and i didnt get it back, i cant wait forever.  

you wanna know whats great about a first love? whats great about a first love is that no matter how hard the other person tries they will never get over you, you may not be “good enough” anymore, but no other girl will replace what you’s had. no other girl will understand your first love like you did. no other girl will take his virginity, but also no other guy will take your’s. the greatness of having a first love is the journey, the connection you hold with someone that was once a complete stranger to you. no matter what you’ll find your way back. 

You know it ain’t easy 
For these thoughts here to leave me
There’s no words to describe it
In French or in English